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In case I die tomorrow

JackDallas

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Remember that goofy prayer, "Now I lay me down to sleep..."? I was always one to be happy to go, any night running, would have been fine with me. Such is the mood of a loner. I tried to sleep with both my wives, but that only works in a king sized bed and I was always poor. Now I'm old and poor. With old age comes pain. And one of the biggest pains is rememberring the stupid things we did and ways we thought in our lives. Today, I live for my wife and son, they need me, at least, I think they do.

I find myself wondering how they would survive if something happened to me. I feel I've woefully let them down, except for faith, I know they will go on believing and trusting. Maybe that was the most important thing to leave them.

We have 3 fish aquariums. Living plants, living moss balls, snails, pretty fish, it's a lot of work but living things keep you company, keep your spirits up. The wife runs a nursery, I send her the water I extract when I clean the gravel, the plants thrive on it, we had a geranium bloom in February, pretty cool experience. Thing is, you get something from living creatures, that the dead furniture doesn't supply. If I die tomorrow, the furniture I built will easily last my son's entire life, but I'm not sure he knows how to care for the fish... the fish give you a big boost, I am afraid they will lose the life they offer, the interaction, they add a big dimension to the home.

That's what I worry about. I worry about what kind of life they will have left. If I lost either of them, it would kill me. This physical life has to end sooner or later, but I always thought it would be alright as long as I got all the furniture built (that's a metaphor) but now I realize, it isn't the furniture that was most important, it's the fish tanks and the plants... its the life, and how will any two of us survive without the 3rd?

If I had the chance to write a note to my younger self, that's what I would have written to myself... focus more on the life, on living things. Instead of fretting over the dead stuff. Maybe I can still learn that.

Great testimony, thank you.
 

Days

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Great testimony, thank you.
This was my success story, the life that I live today, the life I have living with my 2nd wife, a rocky marriage that held together. Whatever I learned on this planet came out of my 2nd marriage.
I met Audrey in Pittsburgh. 1992. She was an information resource clerk working in the children's department at Squirrel Hill branch of Carnegie Library. I used to call her Miss Information. That was because she always gave me the wrong directions, driving in the foothills of Pittsburgh the roads snake around, no one gives the correct directions anywhere in that city. Audrey has a double degree in elementary education and bilingual education, 8 years of undergraduate study, she is a wonder to watch with small children.

So, I had a first marriage also, I met Isabel in Queens, NYC. 1987. Daughter of famed flamenco/classical guitarist Adonis Puertas out of Spain. I got along with her dad, but had problems with her mom. I learned from my first marriage crashing and burning to keep an arm's distance from family... my own and my in-laws. And I learned that I need to run the money. My 2nd marriage would never have survived except for the lessons from the first marriage.

So, this is called heavy metal flamenco...
the girl playing rhythm guitar reminds me of the way Adonis played; she's as good as it gets, she has reached that level of perfection... these two are Mexican, btw, they were street players, and I have no idea how that was possible coming out of Mexico... this is purely a Spanish culture.


Rodrigo Y Gabriela Tamacun live - Glastonbury 2010
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•Jan 20, 2014
 
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Days

Commentator
This was my success story, the life that I live today, the life I have living with my 2nd wife, a rocky marriage that held together. Whatever I learned on this planet came out of my 2nd marriage.
I met Audrey in Pittsburgh. 1992. She was an information resource clerk working in the children's department at Squirrel Hill branch of Carnegie Library. I used to call her Miss Information. That was because she always gave me the wrong directions, driving in the foothills of Pittsburgh the roads snake around, no one gives the correct directions anywhere in that city. Audrey has a double degree in elementary education and bilingual education, 8 years of undergraduate study, she is a wonder to watch with small children.

So, I had a first marriage also, I met Isabel in Queens, NYC. 1987. Daughter of famed flamenco/classical guitarist Adonis Puertas out of Spain. I got along with her dad, but had problems with her mom. I learned from my first marriage crashing and burning to keep an arm's distance from family... my own and my in-laws. And I learned that I need to run the money. My 2nd marriage would never have survived except for the lessons from the first marriage.

So, this is called heavy metal flamenco...
the girl playing rhythm guitar reminds me of the way Adonis played; she's as good as it gets, she has reached that level of perfection... these two are Mexican, btw, they were street players, and I have no idea how that was possible coming out of Mexico... this is purely a Spanish culture.


Rodrigo Y Gabriela Tamacun live - Glastonbury 2010
584,013 views
•Jan 20, 2014
So, this was a thing in my first marriage; I learned Spanish in Mexico, so I have a Mexican accent. So, I remember Isabel hating that so much, that when we were preparing to go to Spain, she told me, "If you must speak, speak in English" ... such was her disdain for my Mexican accent. I gotta tell you, I have no idea what the Cubans or the Puerto Ricans are saying, they call it Spanish, but those are different languages.

So the culture in Mexico is mariachi. If you want to know what a fast paced upbeat Mexican group sounds like, listen to these cats...

Jenny and the Mexicats: NPR Music Tiny Desk Concert
1,796,955 views
•Apr 2, 2018


... Now, compare that to these 2 Mexicans doing the same venue. This is not Mexican music...

Rodrigo y Gabriela: NPR Music Tiny Desk Concert
2,104,957 views
•Oct 19, 2009


... Now, this is what traditional songs in Mexico sound like...

Natalia Lafourcade: NPR Music Tiny Desk Concert
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•Nov 3, 2017
 
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