You may not realize it, if you're encapsulated by leftist media, but what you have said is entirely correct. Anti-white racism destroyed the 5 years of college I worked hard for, and reduced it to the same as if it had never occured. In grad school, I was denied an assistantship by Affirmative Action, that caused me (and 16 othres) to drop out of the the school. I spent most of the next 30 years driving cabs, being a motel clerk, and working as a security guard, all of these barely above minimum wage.
Yes, it was "unbearable" just to realize that I went to college for 5 years and got NOTHING out of it. I scrambled to do something and managed to teach myself a skilled trade (QC mechanical inspection), often faking my way through it, and getting at least a few bucks an hour better the minimum wage.
I also opened my own business (on zero startup capital) and expanded it to 3 branch offices in 3 different counties. None of these successes in my life and anything to do with my college background, which was obliterated by Affirmative Action discrimination against me (et al). Even now in retirement I suffer from that discrimination, as my social security income is far less that it would have been if I had been able to stay in graduate school, get my Masters, and be employed in the career of my choice (urban planning).
Millions of whites and other non-blacks (I'm half Hispanic) have endured this same trouble, rarely mentioned in the leftist MSM.